(Reblogged from negritaaa)

Random perfect beauty in the garden at home…

View at my workplace.

Hey.

Life goes on.

Remember that.

Coz there is MUCH goodness and love to look forward to.

Yessss!!

There is.

;)

If heaven had a height you’d be that tall.

Free Him

Things are looking up.

I am remembering that I have much to be grateful for, that there is so much that I am blessed with, and that I am never alone. Help always appears when I need it and somehow there is always a lingering underlying feeling of positivity/freedom/power even in my low/doubtful moments. Staying prayed-up always helps. Knowing that I am protected, loved and kept safe by a higher power. My son is a real and utter gift to me, and I intend to be the best possible person to him and for him. I know that there are moments when the pressure feels too much because I have to take on so much and because I have to take on so many roles and be everything to him, but I am strong and the challenges and setbacks I face only make me stronger and more determined to succeed and to be better at this. Life goes on. Even when I am having a frustrated moment there is always something good to hang on to….Always something to be grateful for.

To my dear son: I love you so very much. All that I am building is for you. All that I am changing is for you. All these mountains that I am moving are so that your life can be better. I am fighting whole-heartedly so that these vicious/destructive cycles that we see around us will come to a definite end and no longer appear or ever play any kind of role in your life or mine. There is so much I want for you. So much that I want to show you. At the same time there is so much that I am protecting you from and so much that I have to do my best to shield you and your life from. I want you to know the best of me. I want you to see and feel the best of me. I want to be the best possible nurturer/mother to you. I want to give you a solid/firm/strong upbringing so that you will rise far and high and achieve immense greatness and touch many hearts. You are so dear to me. You have changed me, my heart and my life in so many ways. You reflected and shon light and love into my life when I had none. You lit up the skies of my life when my dreams were covered in darkness. You are such a blessing to me. You are such a gift to my being. Thank You. And thank you to The Most High for sending you here. Love you boo.

KL

There are days when I feel like there are so many obstacles in my way, and I have no idea how I am going to overcome them. There are also days when I feel victorious and have the confidence that I will overcome everything no matter how hard the journey is.

Some days are a mixture of both.

At the moment I feel like there is so much standing in my way. Even though I have made major strides and there is much that I am grateful for, I can’t help but wonder how I will overcome every obstacle that’s in the way of me moving forward and achieving success.

I really believe that if I had a supportive family that the journey would be that much easier. It’s very hard to have to be in an environment where there is continuous drama, disrespect and violence and then still having to call that place home and having to call those people family. I can’t stand how suffocating the enviroment is. How it tries to push me ten steps back everytime I take a step forward. How can anybody comfortably stay sane and push forward positively in such a hostile, lifeless, love-free, damaging enviroment? It bothers me. It frustrates me. It annoys me, and it makes me angry. I just want a happy, loving, peaceful home for my son. I don’t feel that is too much to ask. I don’t want the cycle of violence and abuse to continue. I don’t want him to see it, to observe it and to be affected by it. He was born a bundle of love, light and joy. I hate to think of the damage that this environment is doing to my precious child and his mind and heart and the man that he will one day become. I just want to get him away from here more than anything else. There are moments where I feel so helpless, and like I am a bad parent because I can’t get him away from here right now, and because I’ve raised him in this home (of my mum’s) for almost three years. I just really hope and pray that him and I will get away from here soon. It will be a dream come true. And we will finally have peace. All I want is for us to feel safe, and to be in a place where we can be happy/comfortable and to finally have a place that we can call home.

It’s clear that the people here will not change and will continue to perpetuate this vicious cycle of disrespect and violence. It’s terrible. It’s unbearable. More than anything I just want to get away from here and to get my precious son away from here. So right now I need to plan and figure out how I’m going to do that. My son’s safety and well-being, and his development as a child/person is always on my mind.

I will find a clear way forward soon.

Peace. Love.
KL

spiritualinspiration:

 “For he chose us in him before the creation of the world…” (Ephesians 1:4, NIV)
Did you know that God chose you before the foundations of the earth? Before the worlds were ever formed, He knew you. And, He didn’t create you to be average. He didn’t create you to barely get by. No, He created you to excel! Not only has He chosen you, but He has equipped you with everything you need to live and thrive in this life. He has deposited seeds of greatness inside every person. But in order to tap into those seeds of greatness, you have to believe this and act on it.
Too many people today are going around with low self-esteem, feeling inferior like they don’t have what it takes. But that is living a lie. And as long as we have a poor self-image, we’re not going to experience God’s best. In order to be all that God has called us to be, we have to see ourselves as chosen, valuable and victorious.
Today, meditate on this truth. Let it sink down deep into your heart. Let it build confidence and security in you. As you understand your value in the eyes of God, you’ll be empowered to live the life of victory He has prepared for you!

spiritualinspiration:

“For he chose us in him before the creation of the world…” (Ephesians 1:4, NIV)

Did you know that God chose you before the foundations of the earth? Before the worlds were ever formed, He knew you. And, He didn’t create you to be average. He didn’t create you to barely get by. No, He created you to excel! Not only has He chosen you, but He has equipped you with everything you need to live and thrive in this life. He has deposited seeds of greatness inside every person. But in order to tap into those seeds of greatness, you have to believe this and act on it.

Too many people today are going around with low self-esteem, feeling inferior like they don’t have what it takes. But that is living a lie. And as long as we have a poor self-image, we’re not going to experience God’s best. In order to be all that God has called us to be, we have to see ourselves as chosen, valuable and victorious.

Today, meditate on this truth. Let it sink down deep into your heart. Let it build confidence and security in you. As you understand your value in the eyes of God, you’ll be empowered to live the life of victory He has prepared for you!

(Reblogged from chocolatehighhh)

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Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars.
Kahlil Gibran
To understand the heart and mind of a person, look not at what he has already achieved, but at what he aspires to do.
Kahlil Gibran